"I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't."

I'd be a little okay with that. I'd do a few things differently. I think the main thing I would have done would be have the doctors give my mom an MRI/CAT scan on her head. The tumors were growing for 10 some years before they found it. Maybe if they found it a couple years sooner, they could have done more to help her and possibly get rid of it and she'd maybe still be here today. Unless it was just destined for her to leave this world when she did. I don't really know. I'd also prevent a lot of things from happening that have happened to my sisters & I the past few years. A lot of things could have been done differently to keep these bad things from happening. I would call the police on Jeff and get him locked up for all the things he did that were illegal but never caught. If that happened, we wouldn't have gone through so many hardships. Almost everything that's happened was partly his fault. If he wouldn't have been in our lives, I think things would have been a lot better for us. Advice I would have for myself is don't fall in love with that D-Bag from Olympia, just STAY. AWAY. Don't dye your hair black the day before you start 8th grade at a new school. Don't dye it black at all, actually. DO. NOT. GO TO IOWA WITH YOUR DAD FOR A WEEKEND. DON'T DO IT! Your hair will get chopped off to your ears and you'll regret it forever. DON'T GO! Watch Gossip Girl, don't avoid it because the title looks too dramatic. Those are the main things I can think of right now.

whatchu know bout me, whatchu whatchu know bout me?

So as you all know, I've been to quite a lot of schools. Currently Lowpoint-Washburn HS, and the rest are as follows: Olympia HS, Oelwein HS, Morton Jr/Sr High, Mossville Jr high, Morton Elementary School, LWHS Jr high, Stark, ICCS, and before those are just nursery times. That makes a total of 9, or you could say 8. I've lived in over 30 houses. Including apartments and trailers and whatnot. I used to smash eggs on my head just for the heck of it because I thought it would make my hair softer. My sisters and their friends used to throw eggs at me, and one time I had to take 3 showers in one day because they threw so many eggs. that was a sad day. I think everyone knows that I hate peaches, but it's because in 2nd grade i ate a whole can of them and puked it up all over my friend Amanda Buchanan. I hate the number 7 because when i was 6 and Rebecca was 7, she got really sick with a bad cold and was snotting everywhere. So i told myself that i never wanted to turn 7. Ever since, I've hated that number. I love the number 4 because in 6th grade I took a survey and it told me to pick a number and I picked 4. I used to be so obsessed with the number 4 that I would always take the 4th of everything. The 4th paper in the stack or the 4th fork, or tray in the lunch line. Or the 4th shirt in my dresser or at the store i'd grab the 4th one, always. I used to be addicted to runescape and sims.

lean on m, when you're not stroooong

I have some pretty great siblings. We've all been through a lot together and had the best of times. There's Katie who I haven't had around for that long of my life. I met her when I was like 10. She wasn't around much when we first came into each others lives, but because of recent life events, she's been around a lot more. She looks exactly like my mom and that's pretty cool. Then Stephenie, who I'll admit is crazy. She's the craziest out of all of us. If she didn't have children I feel like she would be in some sort of mental institute by now. Her kids have definitely made her stronger. But of course I love her! Shes always looking out for me and checking in on me and how I'm doing. We've had a quite a few good times. I feel bad for her because she doesn't have any parents left. which could be a big part of why shes going insane. Then HANNAH! Dude shes probably the funniest sister. I love her so much, man. Shes always laughing and having a good time. We have the greatest times. I'm really glad that we've gotten closer the past year. Now is Rebecca. I don't know what words could actually explain her, if there even is any. Shes just simply Rebecca. I am so happy I have her to call my sister. She's grown into such an amazing young woman and I couldn't be more proud. We never really got along too well in the past but again, the past year all that has changed and if I had the choice to be inseparable from her, I would be. She always knows what to say when I need advice and she just knows how it is. She can be a real bad word sometimes, but who isn't? Now Kaleb, the little and only brother! He turned 11 yesterday! I am so happy I have him. I have watched him grow and I love it. Hes so smart and kind, I'm so lucky to have been able to watch over him. I love my siblings more than I think I could ever love anything else.