2014.

I hate to be the sappy person that talks about how they've had a horrible year and makes everyone just sad and dreading over reading the blog, but I can't exactly get around doing that without being truthful. So, here's the truth. This year was has taught me that there is such a thing as heartbreak. I've always kind of been a nonbeliever in the term "heart broken," but I slowly figured out that it's all a choice. So I chose to let my heart break. Which I'm still not exactly sure how that's possible, but I guess it is. My heart broke this year. It completely shattered into a billion and 7 pieces. That kind of sucked. It still does. Theoretically, once something breaks, the only solution is to fix it or throw it away and get a new one. I can't get a new heart, so the option I have left is to fix it. I'm not exactly sure how to do that, though. Sometimes when something breaks, you don't have to fix it completely, just a little bit could get you by. That's what I'm trying to do with my heart. I don't think I'll ever be able to fix it completely. There's some things you just can't fix. I'm excited for this year to be over, but really, nothing changes when a year starts over. There's just different dates on a calendar and stuff. Things that happened in 2014 won't go away, disappear, or be forgotten in 2015. I'm also kind of scared for next year. Every new year something horrible seems to happen to me and my family. I will be happy and say that it hasn't been all bad. I've grown so much closer to my family this year. We all have grown closer to one another, and though the circumstances aren't great, it's really nice finally having family there for me whenever I need them. I used to feel so alone all the time, but not so much anymore because I know without a doubt that my family is there for me. I've also finally found a great place to stay with great people that really care about me. & not that relationships are the most important thing, and you don't need one to be happy, but there is this boy that somehow never fails to put the biggest smile on my face. He treats me the way I deserve to be treated and makes me so happy. He's amazing in every way and he is a big part of my happiness right now. I am so thankful for him and all the other good things that have happened this year.